Opposite Action to Love

With me, sometimes love doesn't fit the facts. I love those who have treated me so poorly. Actively thinking about them, activity giving them space in my world. And even though I will always have love for these people, but I don't actively need them around. Which is hard nowadays with social media. It's far too easy for something to pop up into your feed. A little field of landmines to negotiate every time I pick up my phone. To have posts pop up due to other friends or to actively look at their profiles in the middle of the night when I am deep deep deep into emotions mind. 

There was a video posted several days ago that snuck up on me. Some thing I had recommended this person to do over a year ago to strengthen their business. And, just at the moment of moving forward, there's his face.

You've heard me lament about "Opposite Action" and how damn fucking hard it is. Doing the exact opposite to what your emotions are telling you to do. Urging you to do. It's really awful. But it works. So, what do you do when your love doesn't really fit the facts? And you can't simply turn off love or delete that person from your mind? Opposite action. Stop expressing love for this person. Switch your mind when you think of them and change your body posture. Remember what they did to hurt you. Don't speak of them. And do all you can to avoid them. And that includes social media. 

So, using my wise mind, I finally blocked some accounts this morning. And it was sad. I feel sad doing it. Like the final nail in the coffin. But the hope must go. The hope for an apology. The hope that I might mean more, that my friendship meant something. Opposite action. It's torture.

Thanks wise mind.