Ickles

I've just spent almost 7 days in a row with company. Parties, celebrations, visitors, it's too much. Way too much. And I'm sad tonight that I can't handle it. I'm trying to be gentle, but it's a lot. And a huge feeling of sadness has come over me. I should want to be with people. I shouldn't need my quiet time. I shouldn't have to explain my disease over and over and over again. And I'm so tired. And questioning if I can really ever be with someone when I long to be alone.